We Met On A Thursday - Extract

There are many things I don’t believe in. Fairies. Mermaids. That type of fictional shit. I don’t believe in the idea of true love either. The soulmate thing. The happily ever after. It doesn’t make any sense. I am not waiting around for my hero to turn up. You push your way through relationships and turn people away because you think ‘the one’ is waiting for you. It is complete bullshit. I have read about it in books. I have written about it, but I have never really thought about it. I haven’t experienced what it’s like to fall in love and to be happy. I haven’t even come close. I haven’t even had a glimpse. People my age are constantly getting into relationships. But me? Well, I am the ugly duckling of my generation. That is how the universe is treating me. I am so tired of it all.

I feel like the world is constantly closing in on me. I feel like I am being pulled under the current of humanity and I am barely holding on to the surface. I can’t breathe and I am dying. I am slowly dying. Everything just keeps preventing me from getting on with my life. The walls are constantly crushing me. I am constantly being forced under the rubble. My lungs can’t hold on. my bones are breaking and there is darkness everywhere. I can even taste it. I am trying to hold on and fight back against the world, but I can’t. I am not strong enough and eventually, I know I will give up and the world will destroy me. And at this point? I really don’t care anymore. I just want to give up on the world.